comforting words

" the trouble with so many of us is that we underestimate the power of simplicity. we have a tendency it seems to over complicate our lives and forget what's important and what's not. we tend to mistake movement for acheivement. we tend to focus on activities instead of results. and as the pace of life continues to race along in the outside world, we forget that we have the power to control our lives regardless of what's going on on the outside."



- robert stuberg

maybe if i keep on reading this, i'll actually READ this... i make my life so needlessly dramatic sometimes...

last.fm has taken my brain

ever since i found this site, all i have been doing is looking up all of the bands i love and branching out to recommended bands that are in similar vein.  crap.  i am getting absolutely NOTHING done, but i am having a great time doing it!  i was feeling pretty lonely over the past few days, and had been considering a road trip to go clubbing, but it's not in the budget.  finding last.fm is just invigorating my atrophied spirit.  life is pretty good.

very exciting

i have just stumbled upon the last.fm site.  I LOVE THIS SITE! it allows access to a wonderful array of brilliant artists and provides a mechanism for researching similar artists.  they also have had the foresight to provide group forums so that people of like taste can engage in dialogue (including a gay indie forum; it is SO nice to know that my people are out there, or at least an aspect of them; scattered amongst the stars).  it is like what myspace used to be before rupert murdoch took it over and everyone (and apparently every THING) has a profile. i can access the work of artists that i had almost forgotten about, as well as discover brilliant new gems (at least, brilliant and new to my sheltered life).  now if i could only put the whole damn array into my ipod, but that would make my ipod more powerful than the Death Star.... now wouldn't THAT be nice.  unfortunately, my ipod can only hold 80 gb. so sad....

chances are?

i wonder what the likelihood is of finding fellow queer, indie-rocking, health-conscious, body-building, liberal, buddhist, urban-bohemian, bibliophillic, martial artists out here? it would be nice to know that there is a population of them out there some where. it would really suck to think that i'm the only one.

perfection is the inimicus

for so much of my life, i have been obsessed with the idea of perfection; not as an ideal to reach overly, but as a standard to which i have been unconsciously adhering. so why is this a problem?

well, the idea of perfection is a myth, more akin to bigfoot, the lockness monster, compassionate conservatives, and going to war in iraq to capture weapons of mass destruction. when this idea of perfection is brought into conscious awareness, its futility becomes readily apparent. to take no action unless it is "perfect" will kill off great ideas before the can ever see the light of day. to my knowledge, i cannot recall a single idea in history where it was wholly and perfectly conceived at first thought. they have always been evolving works in progress.

so this means that i really shouldn't worry that my thoughts and plans for this blog aren't fully thought out and "perfect" yet. this too is a work in progress. from this point on, i give myself permission to create not-so-perfect works from time to time and be okay with it. after all, this blog exists as an expression of my mind , not the other way around. ah.... i feel much better now.

They are the same words i've heard countless times before, but this time i am actually listening

it isn't about resources; it is about resourcefulness.


wow. i have heard these words so many times before, but only now am i listening. i think i really am making all of it up: the bad, the good, and the indifferent. the hardest truth for me to realize is that i have everything i need to achieve whatever i want to achieve.

but there are so many distractions around me, and it is so easy to be drawn into their drama. however, the holosync work has really helped in clarifying how i think and how i view the world. i can wholeheartedly state that this work has given me new life. my cognitive functions are much smoother now; my emotional states are not so erratic and out of control; and my ability to hold my vision in mind is much more stable and far stronger than it ever has been.

the universe is opening up opportunity before me at a much more rapid rate, but this time, i can see it. i am becoming the right person at the right place at the right time.

it is wonderful.

history is replete with turning points

today is the day where we decide whose vision will lead the country for the next 4 years. whether we cling to the mistakes of the past 8 years or charter out a new way. my faith stands with obama. we shall see.

the first step seems so small

i cannot recall any point in my life when the possibilities for the future were so real. this is really the first action step i have taken outside of mere reading. i am excited and scared and uncertain how this will proceed. i now choose to commit to these plans i have dared to dream for me...


... and so it begins...